Taking a break from my "finals" and I needed a distraction to keep from stabbing my eyes out with my tablet pen. The "" marks are for the sake of the fact that I find this past semester to have been a complete joke- not easy just unbearably painful and taxing on what's left of my soul, and the ending projects are only proving to be the final nails in my coffin. Rigging sucks... true story.

I haven't drawn anything in days. Not even a doodle on a newspaper. That's never happened to me before and I find it a little unnerving; I even cleaned out the car but now I have no sketchbooks for those "just in case" moments. This is why most "artistic kids" (Ep! There they are again!) tend to dwell in a constant state of organized chaos... we at least know where to find our shit when we need it and if we can't we know it will eventually show up again. I'm supposed to be designing a Roaring 20's tier-cake for my co-manager's mom's 80th birthday and a set of poker-themed paintings for my other boss. Both of them know not to expect these from me for at least another week or so because I tend to drag my ass at everything these days and we're all too tired from this week to really care. I get the distinct feeling that Big Brother is watching and it's making all of us a little twitchy.

Do people actually read these things?? I do, but I read a loooot of stuff that I shouldn't and I'm easily entertained. The question is presented because I'm not entirely sure that if no one really does then it gives me free reign to ramble through these... like I'm doing now. Huh.

Some days I wish that I had chosen to attend a physical campus rather than seeking online tutelage. Yes, people in this sort of field make me nervous and I tend to blush and stutter to a painful extent when in such company, but I hate learning through a book and screen. It's cold, I'm losing steam, and the whole thing is rather draining.

Shit... the hubby is a-callin'. Cheers.